Kristina writes a weekly reflection which places the esoteric teachings into daily life. They are thought provoking and pertinent to 21st Century living. They focus on how we can express our I AM, our True Self, more fully in daily situations.

Introduction to The Seven Letters

“Towards the end of the Bible, between the Book of Hebrews and The Revelation, are Seven Letters. They are written by James, John, Peter and Jude. These letters are short and they are written to us, the people who are endeavoring to integrate a radically new consciousness, not just on the earth but in the whole Universe. Since the crucifixion and resurrection of Christ on the earth this Universe was so radically changed that not even the Gods were able to participate as they used to, and so they withdrew.

These were the Gods that guided the human race down the centuries until the time Jesus was born. Humanity depended on them for everything. Now, with the deed of Christ, humanity was left to their own resources. This is a great responsibility and it is up to each individual to discover their path. No longer led and guided by others, but, with an understanding of what lies ahead, stepping out with self-confidence.”

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He was destined before the foundation of the world but was made manifest at the end of the times for your sake. Through him you have confidence in God, who raised him from the dead and gave him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God. Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere love of the brethren, love one another earnestly from the heart. 1 Peter 1:20-22

The previous verse, 19, says that we were ransomed “with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot.” The precious blood of Christ released us from a condition we have had since “before the foundation of the world”. What is this condition? And why would we have it?

One answer – and we should not limit ourselves to one answer – is that this condition held us in unity with the whole universe. We could not be individuals in this state. Only when Christ “could be made manifest” by entering into the body of Jesus, so becoming the prototype for the true, fully human being, was it possible for us to become individuals.

The word ‘destined’ has an interesting place in the Greek language. It is proginosko, which means to have knowledge beforehand, to foreknow, and the word ginosko is the Jewish idiom for sexual intercourse. The word foundation continues along these lines. Foundation, katabole, means throwing or laying down. It also refers to the injection or depositing of the virile semen in the womb, or of the seed of plants and animals.

This gives us an idea of the process of Christ entering into us. It is an inseminating and germinating process and we will eventually give birth to the inner presence of Christ. It is hard to imagine that this was set in place before the foundation of the world, the Cosmos. Foundation also means a founding (laying down a foundation) and comes from the word kataballo which means to cast down, to put in a lower place. We need to think about these processes in detail because they describe what takes place in our own consciousness as we participate in the process of human development.

It is interesting to think that the Christ event was destined eons ago but could only be made manifest “at the end of the times for your sake.” Manifest, phaneroo, means to make visible or known what has been hidden or unknown. Why could we not know about the plan earlier? This is a burning question, the answer to which can be applied to even the smallest events in our lives. Our task is to go through the processes of growth; these are the experiences which awaken the presence of Christ within us. We know that we do not fully understand situations unless we experience them firsthand. Often, when we describe an experience to a friend, we say, “You had to be there.”

The Christ event, which Peter briefly summarizes, is not only a conception but also a death. We must think deeply about these details. We know that one of the most painful experiences in earthly life is death. This could be the death of a person, but it could also be the death of a relationship or even our ideas. Only when we can see death as a step in the process will we receive its full benefit.

This leads us to the idea of faith and hope. As we begin to have an experience of the evolution of humanity and understand that our individual effort will bring us to our predestined potential, our faith grows. As we have previously considered, “faith pistis, doesn’t mean to believe blindly, it speaks of the experience of ginosko, of fully entering into the matter. Faith is actually a clairvoyant power which sees behind the physical, it is a foreseeing knowledge not a substitute for knowledge.”

We must build our confidence in these inner processes of our developing consciousness. It is only when we do this that we can have confidence in our ability to navigate evolution. We will certainly be challenged, especially if we do not engage in the experience of purifying our souls, our psyche.

While we might be drawn to look at the big picture of evolution that Peter describes, we always need to apply these ideas in the moment, in our own consciousness. We use our soul in every moment of the day as we feel, think and act. By directing our attention to become more conscious of every feeling, thought and intention we will purify our soul. This is an ongoing process; it is not about success or failure.

At the heart of this effort is love. This love is of the highest nature, agape. It is not the kind of love we feel for our partner, our family, or our nation, it is a spiritual love. This love rises above the polarity we experience in our soul as we prefer one person over another. This love connects with the potential in every person. When this potential is met with the highest love it is stirred into action. There is no need for it to be acknowledged. This is a silent and private moment between two people and its effects radiate into the future.

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You have been born anew, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; for “All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord abides for ever.” That word is the good news which was preached to you. 1 Peter 1:23-25

We encounter the Word, the logos, again. This is a principal that we can hardly understand with our present mind. Peter refers to it as the “the living and abiding word of God;”. In verse 25 he refers to the word again saying, “the word of the Lord abides for ever.” and “That word is the good news”. This time he is not speaking about the logos but of rhema, which means that which has been uttered, speech, any sound produced by the voice and having definite meaning. Understanding the difference between these two words is fundamental to our spiritual progress. We could say that logos is in a non-spoken state while rhema spoken.

We looked at some aspects of the logos in James’ Letter and we can add to that by considering some of the insights of Ernst Katz in his book Core Anthroposophy. He refers to logos as the primeval ordering principle. He points to St John’s Gospel which starts with the words, “In the beginning,” and says that this means, “when time became distinct from timeless chaos”.

The idea of becoming “born anew” is a similar process. As we live on this earth in a physical body we live in a perishable state; perishable is phthartos meaning corruptible, perishing. If we are born anew we enter into an imperishable state, or an eternal state. Georg Kuhlewind, in his book “Becoming Aware of the Logos” explains that “Eternal life is living consciousness of the I-am-here, which no longer needs to support itself upon the body.” p80 This tells us that we can experience eternity while living in our physical body on this earth but without depending on it. We do this through our awareness of our I Am. Our I Am becomes the supporting structure for life on earth.

We could also say that the Logos has the idea of the I Am which first came to expression through the life of Jesus as he took into himself the Christ Being. The same will happen to us as we replicate this process. Although it will be easier for us now that Jesus has done it.

Ernst Katz explains that “the Word imparted existence […] Nothing could become existent unless existence was imparted to it by the Word.” We could think about this principle by considering the example of the seed, spora, from speiro, meaning to sow, scatter, seed. Our eternal being is seeded within us and must be nurtured to sprout through our own diligence.

At the same time it is important for us to understand that our flesh, our body, is a temporary state. This will only become a reality for us when are able to experience our soul and spirit as the aspects of our being that take on a body from time to time. Only when we can do this are we born anew, anagennao, meaning to be born again; from ana, amidst, among, and gennao to be born. We are born amidst or among ourselves. This gives us the idea of our soul and spirit being born among our flesh. Then we are truly living, zao, which means not to be in a state of lifelessness which we are when we think we are only a body of flesh.

If we can grasp some of the meaning of the Logos as first ordering principle, and if we see ‘ordering’ as alignment of body, soul, and spirit, we will be reborn. If we don’t do this we live in chaos. Chaos is a state of disorder and confusion. It means we can’t make sense of things, our perceptions are confused, and we are never sure about what is right and wrong. This is why some things that we think are wrong are actually right and vice versa. It is as if this state of chaos is waiting for us to set it in order. Ernst Katz suggests that this is the case.

“Thus the opening words of Saint John’s gospel can be interpreted as an attempt to penetrate to the most primary, most encompassing ordering principle that enables us to lift all “things” out of cosmic chaos as well as out of perceptual chaos.”

The first 14 verses of St John’s gospel are key to spiritual development. We should learn them, say them every day, and perhaps keep a diary of the different meanings that come to us. Then we will be self-born as St John explains in the final verse.

“And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, full of grace and truth; we have beheld his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father.” John 1:14

As we previously considered, “The word monogenes is translated as ‘only son’ misconstruing what is being said. The word ‘son’ is not in the Greek. Monogenes means one-born or self-born.” Glory of the self-born from the Father. The Father, our progenitor or originator, can be our I Am.

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For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again; this charge I have received from my Father.” John 10:17f

These words speak about the ultimate sacrifice. To sacrifice our life … and to be able to sacrifice requires that you actually have something to sacrifice. This sacrifice is not that of a soldier fighting for his country, or a quasi-martyr suicide bomber. This is the shepherd giving his life for his sheep. This is about the gentle and good shepherd and the pure and innocent sheep.


John 20, Food for the I AM 1 Now on the first day of the week Mary Mag’dalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb. 2 So she ran, and went to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him.” 3 Peter then came out with the other disciple, and they went toward the tomb. 4 They both ran, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first; 5 and stooping to look in, he saw the linen cloths lying there, but he did not go in. 6 Then Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb; he saw the linen cloths lying, 7 and the napkin, which had been on his head, not lying with the linen cloths but rolled up in a place by itself. 8 Then the other disciple, who reached the tomb first, also went in, and he saw and believed; 9 for as yet they did not know the scripture, that he must rise from the dead. 10 Then the disciples went back to their homes. John 20:1-10 RSV

We know that Christ had to die, but in many of the events surrounding his death choices were made. All through John 18 and 19 we see these choices, especially by Pilate and certainly by the Jews. When an event occurs without choice John writes “this was to fulfil the word”. With this in mind let’s have a look at the morning-after story when Mary and the two disciples visit the tomb. They make many choices.

Let’s say that Christ represents the I AM that must die. The Bible also tells us that a seed must die. A thoughtful person knows that a seed carries within it forces for the future. It is formed by a plant, it actually causes the plant’s death, then it rises again as a totally new plant (not cloned from the old one).


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Read John 19:23- 42 After this Jesus, knowing that all was now finished, said (to fulfil the scripture), “I thirst.” A bowl full of vinegar stood there; so they put a sponge full of the vinegar on hyssop and held it to his mouth. When Jesus had received the vinegar, he said, “It is finished”; and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. 19:28-30

When a person or a thing dies we are told that it no longer exists except as ashes or refuse. Close scrutiny reveals that the opposite is true.

Consider this text in John 12 And Jesus answered them, “The hour has come for the Son of man to be glorified. Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. John 12:23-24


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Reflections on the Eightfold Path of Buddha in the Gospel of St John, June 2004 – December 2004


Read John 5:22-30 The Father judges no one, but has given all judgment to the Son, that all may honor the Son, even as they honor the Father. He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father who sent him. Truly, truly, I say to you, he who hears my word and believes him who sent me, has eternal life; he does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life. John 5:22-24

As the Father is about the will, the Son is about thinking. Judging is no longer cosmically impelled; our judging now arises through our personal thinking. This thinking must be rigorous. A reason for errors of judgement is that thinking is not carried through to the end. It is so easy to jump off the train of thought prematurely. Early conclusions are so tempting, not to mention the time that they save. Lucifer always encourages us to take the easy way out.


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Reflections on the Twelve Disciples using the Gospel of St John, January – December 2005


Nathanael – Two – Imagining

Philip found Nathan’a-el, and said to him, “We have found him of whom Moses in the law and also the prophets wrote, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.” Nathan’a-el said to him, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.” Jesus saw Nathan’a-el coming to him, and said of him, “Behold, an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile!” Nathan’a-el said to him, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered him, “Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you.” Nathan’a-el answered him, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the King of Israel!” Jesus answered him, “Because I said to you, I saw you under the fig tree, do you believe? You shall see greater things than these.” And he said to him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, you will see heaven opened, and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of man.” John 1:45-51

Nathanael represents one of the most misunderstood human abilities, our Imagination. In reality, Imagination extends our consciousness into another dimension. It is a spiritual faculty which does not rely on our physical brain nor does it have a mystical element. Through it we penetrate the veil which separates the physical and spiritual worlds. At this point our abstract thinking dissolves and we see into outer forms to the spiritual truth that sustains them. This can begin simply by looking at a plant or tree that droops towards the ground in a sad way, or a flower that lifts its head to smile at the sun. This imagining connects us in new ways with the outer world.


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Reflections on the Signs in the Gospel of St John, January – July 2006

Water to Wine – One – Changing Feeling into Thinking


On the third day there was a marriage at Cana in Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there; Jesus also was invited to the marriage, with his disciples. When the wine failed, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “O woman, what have you to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Now six stone jars were standing there, for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. Jesus said to them, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. He said to them, “Now draw some out, and take it to the steward of the feast.” So they took it. When the steward of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the steward of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Every man serves the good wine first; and when men have drunk freely, then the poor wine; but you have kept the good wine until now.” This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory; and his disciples believed in him. John 2:1-11

This series of Reflections will explore the so called signs in the Gospel of St John. These signs are also associated with miracles performed by Jesus after he was baptised by John the Baptist. If we take the life of Jesus as a blue print for our own spiritual development, we can use events such as these signs and miracles as a barometer of our progress.


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Reflections on the Nine Beatitudes using the Gospel of St John, August 2006 – March 2007


1.4 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

We can look at each of the nine beatitudes in terms of the Christ-ening of the nine parts of our being; physical, etheric, astral and then the three soul and three spiritual regions. If we apply the first beatitude to our physical body we will find clues about how our I AM is enlivened in our body.

Our physical body is the most fully developed part of us. The physiology of the human being is a marvel. The way our skeleton, muscles and skin hold and protect our organs in a life giving way is truly wondrous.


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Reflections on the Book of Revelation, April 2007 – April 2010

SoulSecretPOD-001The revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show to his servants what must soon take place; and he made it known by sending his angel to his servant John, who bore witness to the word of God and to the testimony of Jesus Christ, even to all that he saw. Blessed is he who reads aloud the words of the prophecy, and blessed are those who hear, and who keep what is written therein; for the time is near. Rev 1:1-3

We can read and contemplate the bible in many ways. We should certainly take notice of the literal meaning of its stories. This becomes a most difficult task when we read the Revelation to John. The imagery is shocking, mystifying and bizarre, especially when we place it outside ourselves. It more closely resembles our dream life rather than our waking life.


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Reflections on Who is Jesus, What is Christ? May 2010 – October 2016


The Bible can only be fully understood when we have a detailed knowledge of the makeup of the human being. We can only have this understanding through our own personal experience of ourselves which we have applied and tested in our own lives throughout the day. When we are able to experience that we are beings of body, soul and spirit we then come to the point of experiencing ourselves as beings of soul and spirit which occupy our body much like we would occupy a car to transport us here and there.

If we can grasp this truth and actually have a personal experience of it, we can then approach the possibility of our soul and spirit entering repeatedly into different bodies at different times in history. This could be compared to upgrading the model of our car from time to time. There is a passage in the Bible that could support this idea of reincarnation. When the Jews heard that John the Baptist was baptising they sent their representatives to question him about who he was; Christ, Elijah, or the prophet?

And this is the testimony of John, when the Jews sent priests and Levites from Jerusalem to ask him, “Who are you?” He confessed, he did not deny, but confessed, “I am not the Christ.” And they asked him, “What then? Are you Elijah?” He said, “I am not.” “Are you the prophet?” And he answered, “No.” They said to him then, “Who are you? Let us have an answer for those who sent us. What do you say about yourself?” Jn 1:19-22

Why would they choose Elijah from all the possibilities? Furthermore, they knew that Elijah was long dead? It is possible that they recognised traits of Elijah’s in the Baptist or perhaps they had the spiritual vision to see who had been in the past. So if he was Elijah in a past life why didn’t he affirm this? To answer this question fully we need to consider in some detail how and why we enter into different bodies at different times throughout history.


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To Journey Back November 2016 ongoing

This is the story about a man who has just died. In the afterlife he is tracing the life he has just lived backwards. It is a life review, step by step, from the moment of the last breath back to the moment of the first breath, to re-experience every thought, feeling, and action and interaction he had through his life.

He remains connected with his close friends and, as he sees what they are doing in the days after his death, he understands more deeply the relationship he had with them. He also sees all the activity surrounding his death, which he was not aware of when he was alive.
More and more people who have had a near death experience are reporting that this is the experience we all have when we die. At some point in their after-life experience they decided to come back and continue living their current life. We have much to learn from them, not only for when we die, but for how we can live our lives on this earth more meaningfully.

If we can have a real experience of what happens when we die it will assist us to meet the end of our own life with more awareness. Our journey forward will then be a great contribution to human evolution. I hope you enjoy this journey.

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