Kristina writes a weekly reflection which places the esoteric teachings into daily life. They are thought provoking and pertinent to 21st Century living. They focus on how we can express our I AM, our True Self, more fully in daily situations.

Introduction to The Seven Letters

“Towards the end of the Bible, between the Book of Hebrews and The Revelation, are Seven Letters. They are written by James, John, Peter and Jude. These letters are short and they are written to us, the people who are endeavoring to integrate a radically new consciousness, not just on the earth but in the whole Universe. Since the crucifixion and resurrection of Christ on the earth this Universe was so radically changed that not even the Gods were able to participate as they used to, and so they withdrew.

These were the Gods that guided the human race down the centuries until the time Jesus was born. Humanity depended on them for everything. Now, with the deed of Christ, humanity was left to their own resources. This is a great responsibility and it is up to each individual to discover their path. No longer led and guided by others, but, with an understanding of what lies ahead, stepping out with self-confidence.”

The Seven Letters 63

This is now the second letter that I have written to you, beloved, and in both of them I have aroused your sincere mind by way of reminder; that you should remember the predictions of the holy prophets and the commandment of the Lord and Savior through your apostles. First of all you must understand this, that scoffers will come in the last days with scoffing, following their own passions and saying, “Where is the promise of his coming? For ever since the fathers fell asleep, all things have continued as they were from the beginning of creation.” 2 Peter 3:1-4

When Peter addresses us as beloved he speaks of the highest union human beings can experience; agape. This love is beyond our understanding; it is the love that God expresses in all creation. We can imagine this if we think of a being who finds what is good in all things.

We can only experience this love if we have been aroused, diegeiro. There are nine words for arouse in the Greek. Diegeiro means to awaken from sleep. It involves agitation, the kind of agitation that rises in the sea as it forms waves. Peter is uses this word to describe the way he has awakened our sincere mind. Sincere, eilikrines, means to be found pure when unfolded and examined by the sun’s light. Mind, dianoia, from dia: through, by means of, and nous: apprehension of eternal intelligible substances and first principles.

This could explain why we are always drawn back to the past. It is a subconscious reminder hypomnesis, which Vines says is a reminder prompted by another rather than an unassisted recalling – pointing to the union of the beloveds. Could this mean that we need support to remember the first principles of creation from which we have emerged?

Peter then says that we will “remember the predictions of the holy prophets and the commandment of the Lord and Savior through your apostles.” This word remember is mnaomai which means to keep in mind, to recall something and be mindful of something that we consciously know. In this way, we are to remember predictions and commandments. Predictions, prolego, meaning to say beforehand, to predict; and commandments, entole, meaning moral principles. This points to the word for truth, alethes, which means to un-forget.

Then comes the warning that we must learn to recognize when we achieve the consciousness Peter explains. We will meet the scoffers. Scoffer, empaiktes, comes from empaizo which means to play with, trifle with, to mock or to delude and deceive. Empaizo comes from paizo which means to play like a child, to jest, and joke. How often do we laugh at what others say instead of taking them seriously?

Rudolf Steiner explains laughter in this way:

“Laughter can be seen to be a kind of expression of ego [‘I’] nature because if you really enquire into it you will find that laughter can always be attributed to the fact that the person feels superior to the people and happenings around him. Why does a person laugh? Someone invariably laughs when he fancies himself to be above what he sees. You can always find this statement verified. Whether you are laughing at yourself or at someone else your ego [‘I’] is always feeling superior to something. And out of this feeling of superiority it expands the forces of its astral body, broadens and puffs them up. Strictly speaking this is what is really at the root of laughter. And this is why laughter can be such a healthy thing. And this pluming oneself should not be condemned in the abstract as egoistic, for laughter can be very healthy when it strengthens man’s feeling of selfhood, especially if it is warranted and leads him beyond himself.” Rudolf Steiner 27th April, 1909

This leads us to understand that laughter is part of the process that leads us to experience our Higher Self. Here we have a choice. We can scoff at someone because we think their behavior is strange, or we can use the inner experience that leads to scoffing to understand that something higher exists in the other person – and in ourselves.

These scoffers say, “Where is the promise of his coming? For ever since the fathers fell asleep, all things have continued as they were from the beginning of creation.” This is the kind of thinking all around us, accepting that we carry on even if the fathers have fallen asleep. They don’t understand that the fathers fell asleep to enable us to step up and lead ourselves. The clue is in the word coming, parousia, which according to Vines literally means “a presence, para, with, and ousia, being (from eimi, to be), denotes both an arrival and a consequent presence with.” Eimi is part of the Greek expression ego eimi, I Am.

When the scoffers mention the “promise of his coming” they reveal that they don’t know that he is here. Matthew ends his Gospel with these important words to continually reassure us.

“Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. And when they saw him they worshiped him; but some doubted. And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, to the close of the age.” Mt 28:16-20

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The Seven Letters 64

They deliberately ignore this fact, that by the word of God heavens existed long ago, and an earth formed out of water and by means of water, through which the world that then existed was deluged with water and perished. But by the same word the heavens and earth that now exist have been stored up for fire, being kept until the day of judgment and destruction of ungodly men. But do not ignore this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. 2 Peter 3:5-8

The previous verse says that when people say that, “all things have continued as they were from the beginning of creation.” 2 Peter 3:4 it reveals that they ignore the word, logos, of God. They reveal their own blindness to cosmic and human evolution influencing those who are not conscious enough to explore the facts. This perfectly describes our present stage of evolution.

Understanding evolution is a crucial part of our development. We have not always existed in this firm physical body, nor will it continue into the future. We are beings of soul and spirit who occupy a body suited to our environment. We must continually remind ourselves that the principles of evolution exist in our consciousness as Peter’s warns with his words “But do not ignore this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.”

The references to water and fire refer to the stages of evolution called Lemurian and Atlantean. We currently live in the subsequent stage, the Post-Atlantean. Rudolf Steiner’s lecture given 10th June 1909 called “Stages in the Evolution of our Earth. Lemurian, Atlantean, Post-Atlantean Epochs” puts these stages of evolution into perspective. This lecture describes the cause of floods and fires revealing that these same causes exist today. They exist because so many people ignore the logos of God. Ignore, lanthano, means to be hidden, unaware, without knowing. If we can enter deeply into the idea of the Word, the logos, the creative ideas at the foundation of this world, the eternal essence that created this Universe, and indeed continues to create it, we awaken the truth.

Awakening to truth is about seeing the basic principles all around us. When fire ravages areas of this earth, its root cause is not climate change; it is caused by another human activity. The evolutionary stage called Lemuria was destroyed by fire as Rudolf Steiner describes in the lecture mentioned above:

“Through the wickedness of masses of human beings and the fact that man succumbed too completely to the influence of the luciferic beings and lent himself to evil, the forces of fire in Lemuria were kindled. Thus, Lemuria perished as the result of the raging fires and the wickedness of a large section of its population.”

If we apply the principle of “one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day” we can make much more sense of what takes place in our world today. These words essentially tell us that the past can exist in the present. It all depends on our awareness.

The evolutionary stage called Atlantis was destroyed by flood – this is what the story of Noah is about. Steiner continues:

“In Lemuria, with their magical forces, men had a strong effect upon nature. They could, for example, control fire. The Atlanteans were no longer capable of this. But with their will they could control the germinal forces in which deep secrets lie hidden — the forces of air and water.”

Again, in our present stage of evolution, we see the forces of air and water in the cyclones that ravage parts of the earth. Our task is to change our thought process so that when we experience fires and floods we immediately recognize the evolutionary processes at work. If for instance we wonder why an area of the earth is on fire, our thoughts about man succumbing to the influence of Lucifer should be front of mind.

This doesn’t mean that we should judge people. We simply recognize that the lowered consciousness of people allows the activity of Luciferic beings to enter into them and take over their thought processes. This is also something we should be aware of in ourselves.

We should also not feel defeated by outer circumstances; they are simply signs of the inner activity of human beings. Each of us has the opportunity to change this by simply seeing the truth behind the matter. These periods of fire and water are repeated on ever higher levels throughout evolution and their nature depends on human activity. If we can find ways to live into the ideas of fire and water, to see the ways in which they are creative as well as destructive, we have made a start. Then in our thinking “one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day”. These principles exist in our subconscious, it is up to us to bring them into consciousness, and our effort to do so affects evolution.

Some other words from Steiner can assist with this thought process as he compares the stages of evolution with the seasons. As we move through each season we can think of the evolutionary changes they represent.

“Twelve thousand years pass between one cosmic New Year and another.”  … “Zarathustra spoke of epochs of twelve thousand years. He meant the great cosmic years of which I have spoken to you to-day. He represented the course of human evolution as being divided into four divisions within the Earth year. This fact is deeply rooted in spiritual mysteries.” The Year as a Symbol of the Great Cosmic Year 31.12.1915

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Reflections on the Seven I AM sayings in the Gospel of St John January – September 2003 – Always free

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For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again; this charge I have received from my Father.” John 10:17f

These words speak about the ultimate sacrifice. To sacrifice our life … and to be able to sacrifice requires that you actually have something to sacrifice. This sacrifice is not that of a soldier fighting for his country, or a quasi-martyr suicide bomber. This is the shepherd giving his life for his sheep. This is about the gentle and good shepherd and the pure and innocent sheep.


John 20, Food for the I AM 1 Now on the first day of the week Mary Mag’dalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb. 2 So she ran, and went to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him.” 3 Peter then came out with the other disciple, and they went toward the tomb. 4 They both ran, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first; 5 and stooping to look in, he saw the linen cloths lying there, but he did not go in. 6 Then Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb; he saw the linen cloths lying, 7 and the napkin, which had been on his head, not lying with the linen cloths but rolled up in a place by itself. 8 Then the other disciple, who reached the tomb first, also went in, and he saw and believed; 9 for as yet they did not know the scripture, that he must rise from the dead. 10 Then the disciples went back to their homes. John 20:1-10 RSV

We know that Christ had to die, but in many of the events surrounding his death choices were made. All through John 18 and 19 we see these choices, especially by Pilate and certainly by the Jews. When an event occurs without choice John writes “this was to fulfil the word”. With this in mind let’s have a look at the morning-after story when Mary and the two disciples visit the tomb. They make many choices.

Let’s say that Christ represents the I AM that must die. The Bible also tells us that a seed must die. A thoughtful person knows that a seed carries within it forces for the future. It is formed by a plant, it actually causes the plant’s death, then it rises again as a totally new plant (not cloned from the old one).


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Read John 19:23- 42 After this Jesus, knowing that all was now finished, said (to fulfil the scripture), “I thirst.” A bowl full of vinegar stood there; so they put a sponge full of the vinegar on hyssop and held it to his mouth. When Jesus had received the vinegar, he said, “It is finished”; and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. 19:28-30

When a person or a thing dies we are told that it no longer exists except as ashes or refuse. Close scrutiny reveals that the opposite is true.

Consider this text in John 12 And Jesus answered them, “The hour has come for the Son of man to be glorified. Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. John 12:23-24


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Reflections on the Eightfold Path of Buddha in the Gospel of St John, June 2004 – December 2004


Read John 5:22-30 The Father judges no one, but has given all judgment to the Son, that all may honor the Son, even as they honor the Father. He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father who sent him. Truly, truly, I say to you, he who hears my word and believes him who sent me, has eternal life; he does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life. John 5:22-24

As the Father is about the will, the Son is about thinking. Judging is no longer cosmically impelled; our judging now arises through our personal thinking. This thinking must be rigorous. A reason for errors of judgement is that thinking is not carried through to the end. It is so easy to jump off the train of thought prematurely. Early conclusions are so tempting, not to mention the time that they save. Lucifer always encourages us to take the easy way out.


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Reflections on the Twelve Disciples using the Gospel of St John, January – December 2005


Nathanael – Two – Imagining

Philip found Nathan’a-el, and said to him, “We have found him of whom Moses in the law and also the prophets wrote, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.” Nathan’a-el said to him, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.” Jesus saw Nathan’a-el coming to him, and said of him, “Behold, an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile!” Nathan’a-el said to him, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered him, “Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you.” Nathan’a-el answered him, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the King of Israel!” Jesus answered him, “Because I said to you, I saw you under the fig tree, do you believe? You shall see greater things than these.” And he said to him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, you will see heaven opened, and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of man.” John 1:45-51

Nathanael represents one of the most misunderstood human abilities, our Imagination. In reality, Imagination extends our consciousness into another dimension. It is a spiritual faculty which does not rely on our physical brain nor does it have a mystical element. Through it we penetrate the veil which separates the physical and spiritual worlds. At this point our abstract thinking dissolves and we see into outer forms to the spiritual truth that sustains them. This can begin simply by looking at a plant or tree that droops towards the ground in a sad way, or a flower that lifts its head to smile at the sun. This imagining connects us in new ways with the outer world.


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Reflections on the Signs in the Gospel of St John, January – July 2006

Water to Wine – One – Changing Feeling into Thinking


On the third day there was a marriage at Cana in Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there; Jesus also was invited to the marriage, with his disciples. When the wine failed, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “O woman, what have you to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Now six stone jars were standing there, for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. Jesus said to them, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. He said to them, “Now draw some out, and take it to the steward of the feast.” So they took it. When the steward of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the steward of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Every man serves the good wine first; and when men have drunk freely, then the poor wine; but you have kept the good wine until now.” This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory; and his disciples believed in him. John 2:1-11

This series of Reflections will explore the so called signs in the Gospel of St John. These signs are also associated with miracles performed by Jesus after he was baptised by John the Baptist. If we take the life of Jesus as a blue print for our own spiritual development, we can use events such as these signs and miracles as a barometer of our progress.


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Reflections on the Nine Beatitudes using the Gospel of St John, August 2006 – March 2007


1.4 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

We can look at each of the nine beatitudes in terms of the Christ-ening of the nine parts of our being; physical, etheric, astral and then the three soul and three spiritual regions. If we apply the first beatitude to our physical body we will find clues about how our I AM is enlivened in our body.

Our physical body is the most fully developed part of us. The physiology of the human being is a marvel. The way our skeleton, muscles and skin hold and protect our organs in a life giving way is truly wondrous.


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Reflections on the Book of Revelation, April 2007 – April 2010

SoulSecretPOD-001The revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show to his servants what must soon take place; and he made it known by sending his angel to his servant John, who bore witness to the word of God and to the testimony of Jesus Christ, even to all that he saw. Blessed is he who reads aloud the words of the prophecy, and blessed are those who hear, and who keep what is written therein; for the time is near. Rev 1:1-3

We can read and contemplate the bible in many ways. We should certainly take notice of the literal meaning of its stories. This becomes a most difficult task when we read the Revelation to John. The imagery is shocking, mystifying and bizarre, especially when we place it outside ourselves. It more closely resembles our dream life rather than our waking life.


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Reflections on Who is Jesus, What is Christ? May 2010 – October 2016


The Bible can only be fully understood when we have a detailed knowledge of the makeup of the human being. We can only have this understanding through our own personal experience of ourselves which we have applied and tested in our own lives throughout the day. When we are able to experience that we are beings of body, soul and spirit we then come to the point of experiencing ourselves as beings of soul and spirit which occupy our body much like we would occupy a car to transport us here and there.

If we can grasp this truth and actually have a personal experience of it, we can then approach the possibility of our soul and spirit entering repeatedly into different bodies at different times in history. This could be compared to upgrading the model of our car from time to time. There is a passage in the Bible that could support this idea of reincarnation. When the Jews heard that John the Baptist was baptising they sent their representatives to question him about who he was; Christ, Elijah, or the prophet?

And this is the testimony of John, when the Jews sent priests and Levites from Jerusalem to ask him, “Who are you?” He confessed, he did not deny, but confessed, “I am not the Christ.” And they asked him, “What then? Are you Elijah?” He said, “I am not.” “Are you the prophet?” And he answered, “No.” They said to him then, “Who are you? Let us have an answer for those who sent us. What do you say about yourself?” Jn 1:19-22

Why would they choose Elijah from all the possibilities? Furthermore, they knew that Elijah was long dead? It is possible that they recognised traits of Elijah’s in the Baptist or perhaps they had the spiritual vision to see who had been in the past. So if he was Elijah in a past life why didn’t he affirm this? To answer this question fully we need to consider in some detail how and why we enter into different bodies at different times throughout history.


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To Journey Back November 2016 ongoing

This is the story about a man who has just died. In the afterlife he is tracing the life he has just lived backwards. It is a life review, step by step, from the moment of the last breath back to the moment of the first breath, to re-experience every thought, feeling, and action and interaction he had through his life.

He remains connected with his close friends and, as he sees what they are doing in the days after his death, he understands more deeply the relationship he had with them. He also sees all the activity surrounding his death, which he was not aware of when he was alive.
More and more people who have had a near death experience are reporting that this is the experience we all have when we die. At some point in their after-life experience they decided to come back and continue living their current life. We have much to learn from them, not only for when we die, but for how we can live our lives on this earth more meaningfully.

If we can have a real experience of what happens when we die it will assist us to meet the end of our own life with more awareness. Our journey forward will then be a great contribution to human evolution. I hope you enjoy this journey.

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