Kristina writes a weekly reflection which places the esoteric teachings into daily life. They are thought provoking and pertinent to 21st Century living. They focus on how we can express our I AM, our True Self, more fully in daily situations.

Introduction to The Seven Letters

“Towards the end of the Bible, between the Book of Hebrews and The Revelation, are Seven Letters. They are written by James, John, Peter and Jude. These letters are short and they are written to us, the people who are endeavoring to integrate a radically new consciousness, not just on the earth but in the whole Universe. Since the crucifixion and resurrection of Christ on the earth this Universe was so radically changed that not even the Gods were able to participate as they used to, and so they withdrew.

These were the Gods that guided the human race down the centuries until the time Jesus was born. Humanity depended on them for everything. Now, with the deed of Christ, humanity was left to their own resources. This is a great responsibility and it is up to each individual to discover their path. No longer led and guided by others, but, with an understanding of what lies ahead, stepping out with self-confidence.”

The Seven Letters 39

For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps. He committed no sin; no guile was found on his lips. When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten; but he trusted to him who judges justly. He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed. For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Guardian of your souls. I Peter 2:21-25

Peter is explaining that we have been called to suffer, to be affected by earthly events. Often we avoid the experience of being affected yet if we embrace it our experience may surprise us. Suffering experienced by the lower self is self-absorbing; we intensify it by holding it within us. By doing this we sin, hamartia, we miss the mark. Holding the suffering in also means we have guile, dolos, a word which comes from deleazo, which means to bait, catch by a bait. This speaks to us about the way we blame others for our suffering. We bait them in a way that they also suffer which brings us a sense of satisfaction.

This is not what we have been called for. Called, kaleo, has several meanings. It means to call aloud, to invite, and it also means to bear a name or title. Being called is at the same time a title, but it is also about being given a name. We each have a cosmic name; we could say that it is the eternal name by which we are known when we stand in our Higher Self. The name we have in this life is a name for that part of us that incarnates time and again, each time the name will probably be different.

A name also indicates our nature, and each incarnation has a different purpose which contributes to changing our nature depending on whether we express our lower or Higher Self. Our eternal name indicates the nature of our Higher Self. When we are called, we are called by our eternal name. We then begin to express the nature of our eternal name in each incarnation. For this reason we don’t hit back at others because we know that each experience, as it relates to karma, gives us the opportunity to have a closer relationship to our Higher Self. When we arrive at this point we trust “him who judges justly.” Judge is krino, meaning to separate and examine, and in this way restore balance.

“He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree” is a misinterpretation of what takes place. It should read that we bear our sins like Jesus did; he doesn’t bear our sins. The text is saying that those who themselves carry, anaphero – which means to lift up one’s self – their sins, will live, zao, which is our life force, our etheric. In other words, personally bearing our sins gives us life. The body on the tree is soma, which includes our etheric and lower astral – all that is physically required to sustain life on this earth. It is “on the tree”, it is positioned differently; instead of living on the earth from a purely physical perspective, this body now positions itself in the etheric. Trees, and all plants, are etheric beings.

When this takes place we “die to sin”. Die is apogenomenos, which means to be removed from, depart, die to anything. We die to our total focus on the physical world as we become aware of the etheric life force within us and around us on the earth.

Then Peter says, “By his wounds you have been healed.” Wounds, molops, means wounds that trickle with blood. Our blood is the vehicle of our I Am, our Higher Self. This speaks to us of the changes that take place in our blood as we integrate our I Am into our physical body and we are healed, iaomai, meaning to make whole.

The last verse, 25, speaks directly to our own efforts. “For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Guardian of your souls.” Sheep, probaton, means any four footed animal, a tame animal accustomed to graze. It comes from the word probaino, which means to go forwards, to go on. This is a reference to our astral body which is responsible for the movement of our body. Plants don’t move because they don’t have an astral body which can certainly stray preventing a connection with our Higher Self.

the Shepherd and Guardian of your souls.” speaks to us of our Guardian Angel which guides and guards us until we reconnect consciously with our I Am. When this happens, our Guardian Angel stands back and we take full responsibility for our spiritual development.

It really is interesting to see what can be revealed with esoteric knowledge. Our instinctive response to a text like this is to believe that the work is being done for us. This, in itself, is a test. If we read these words using some of the above suggestions we prevail over the lower self’s inclination to sit back and wait for higher beings to do what we need to do ourselves. However, if we find ways to put in our own effort we will be assisted, firstly by our Guardian Angel before our Higher Self has a strong enough connection. Then, as the Higher Self, the I Am, represented by Jesus, makes the connection, the Christ force within us is activated. This is every human being’s purpose on this earth, and conditions on the earth will take place to wake us up to this purpose.

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The Seven Letters 40

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Likewise you wives, be submissive to your husbands, so that some, though they do not obey the word, may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives, when they see your reverent and chaste behavior. Let not yours be the outward adorning with braiding of hair, decoration of gold, and wearing of fine clothing, but let it be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable jewel of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious. I Peter 3:1-4

Surely we are not meant to take the first verse literally. We also cannot skip over it thinking that it may have applied when it was written but now that is no longer the case. The following ideas can inspire us to think more deeply about what Peter means.

“Now we must ask: what are the wife and the husband within us? In a very basic, generalized way we know that the feminine nature is the nurturer, filled with feeling. The male nature is more practical, more pragmatic, based on thinking. Our task is to encourage these two to work together so that feeling warms the coldness of our thinking and thinking guides our feeling to be practical.

Submissive in Greek is hupotasso, where hupo means under, and tasso means to arrange. We can understand that he is saying we arrange our feelings under our thoughts and in this way we keep our emotions under control.” Kristina Kaine, The Bible Unlocked

Human development depends on individual human beings controlling their own consciousness. It is not about doing this successfully, it is about putting in the effort. Every attempt strengthens us, and changes us, which sets an example for others to do that same. We don’t tell others what to do; we show them other ways to be.

This is indicated by the words about husbands, “so that some, though they do not obey the word,” The word is the logos, that eternal essence that created the universe, and indeed continues to create it. The words, “not obey”, apeitheo, mean not to allow one’s self to be persuaded. We live in a time where we resist persuasion. We are committed to our personal thoughts and take a lot of convincing to be influenced by the ideas of others. The only thing that may influence us is observing something different in the behavior of others.

Behavior, anastrophe, means manner of life, conduct, and comes from the word anastrepho, meaning to turn upside down, overturn, to turn one’s self about. This helps us understand that if a wife changes her behavior the husband may take notice. No amount of talking or persuading will change another person but if they see someone change the way they approach life they will be influenced. In this way the change comes about from within each individual which is how it is supposed to be. Then we free ourselves from imposing our ideas on others.

Then Peter applies these principles to all of us, not just married couples. He speaks about the superficial way we can act while within us we have not changed. We hold on to our ideas but outwardly we adorn ourselves with refinery. The word adorning is kosmos, which means many things in Greek, from an apt and harmonious arrangement or constitution, order, government, the world, the universe. It comes from the word komizo, meaning to care for, take care of, provide for. Peter is saying that this adorning should not be outward, “but let it be the hidden person of the heart”.

Our work is inner work. The challenge is to become aware of our inner consciousness. Do we notice every tiny thought that flashes through our mind when we observe the outer world? Do we judge others secretly and pretend that we didn’t have these thoughts? This is adorning ourselves with fine clothes and gold.

Peter is telling us to “let it be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable jewel of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.” If we are in God’s sight, enopion, we are in his presence. How often do we think of ourselves as being in God’s presence? If we did we would never think one thing and do another. Perhaps this is why we are not in God’s presence very often because we don’t measure up. Yet, if we are honest with ourselves, we want to be in God’s sight, in his presence. The choice is ours. Can we monitor our thoughts so that they are true in both their inner and outer aspect?

If we manage our thoughts and allow our thoughts to guide our feelings, we enter into that state of eternity. This is that state where we are connected with our eternal being, our I Am. This state is hidden within our hearts; it is not displayed superficially, egotistically. To live this way sets us apart from society and requires strength of character to maintain. At first we can feel that we are not normal, yet we are trying to escape from what is considered normal. We are escaping from the “braiding of hair, decoration of gold, and wearing of fine clothing” to the “imperishable jewel”. If we hold this image in our hearts it will inspire us to be confident in the face of judgments that can turn us away from the imperishable jewel that is our I Am.

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For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again; this charge I have received from my Father.” John 10:17f

These words speak about the ultimate sacrifice. To sacrifice our life … and to be able to sacrifice requires that you actually have something to sacrifice. This sacrifice is not that of a soldier fighting for his country, or a quasi-martyr suicide bomber. This is the shepherd giving his life for his sheep. This is about the gentle and good shepherd and the pure and innocent sheep.


John 20, Food for the I AM 1 Now on the first day of the week Mary Mag’dalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb. 2 So she ran, and went to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him.” 3 Peter then came out with the other disciple, and they went toward the tomb. 4 They both ran, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first; 5 and stooping to look in, he saw the linen cloths lying there, but he did not go in. 6 Then Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb; he saw the linen cloths lying, 7 and the napkin, which had been on his head, not lying with the linen cloths but rolled up in a place by itself. 8 Then the other disciple, who reached the tomb first, also went in, and he saw and believed; 9 for as yet they did not know the scripture, that he must rise from the dead. 10 Then the disciples went back to their homes. John 20:1-10 RSV

We know that Christ had to die, but in many of the events surrounding his death choices were made. All through John 18 and 19 we see these choices, especially by Pilate and certainly by the Jews. When an event occurs without choice John writes “this was to fulfil the word”. With this in mind let’s have a look at the morning-after story when Mary and the two disciples visit the tomb. They make many choices.

Let’s say that Christ represents the I AM that must die. The Bible also tells us that a seed must die. A thoughtful person knows that a seed carries within it forces for the future. It is formed by a plant, it actually causes the plant’s death, then it rises again as a totally new plant (not cloned from the old one).


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Reflections of the Seven Christian Initiations in the Gospel of St John, September 2003 – May 2004

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Read John 19:23- 42 After this Jesus, knowing that all was now finished, said (to fulfil the scripture), “I thirst.” A bowl full of vinegar stood there; so they put a sponge full of the vinegar on hyssop and held it to his mouth. When Jesus had received the vinegar, he said, “It is finished”; and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. 19:28-30

When a person or a thing dies we are told that it no longer exists except as ashes or refuse. Close scrutiny reveals that the opposite is true.

Consider this text in John 12 And Jesus answered them, “The hour has come for the Son of man to be glorified. Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. John 12:23-24


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Reflections on the Eightfold Path of Buddha in the Gospel of St John, June 2004 – December 2004


Read John 5:22-30 The Father judges no one, but has given all judgment to the Son, that all may honor the Son, even as they honor the Father. He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father who sent him. Truly, truly, I say to you, he who hears my word and believes him who sent me, has eternal life; he does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life. John 5:22-24

As the Father is about the will, the Son is about thinking. Judging is no longer cosmically impelled; our judging now arises through our personal thinking. This thinking must be rigorous. A reason for errors of judgement is that thinking is not carried through to the end. It is so easy to jump off the train of thought prematurely. Early conclusions are so tempting, not to mention the time that they save. Lucifer always encourages us to take the easy way out.


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Reflections on the Twelve Disciples using the Gospel of St John, January – December 2005


Nathanael – Two – Imagining

Philip found Nathan’a-el, and said to him, “We have found him of whom Moses in the law and also the prophets wrote, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.” Nathan’a-el said to him, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.” Jesus saw Nathan’a-el coming to him, and said of him, “Behold, an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile!” Nathan’a-el said to him, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered him, “Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you.” Nathan’a-el answered him, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the King of Israel!” Jesus answered him, “Because I said to you, I saw you under the fig tree, do you believe? You shall see greater things than these.” And he said to him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, you will see heaven opened, and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of man.” John 1:45-51

Nathanael represents one of the most misunderstood human abilities, our Imagination. In reality, Imagination extends our consciousness into another dimension. It is a spiritual faculty which does not rely on our physical brain nor does it have a mystical element. Through it we penetrate the veil which separates the physical and spiritual worlds. At this point our abstract thinking dissolves and we see into outer forms to the spiritual truth that sustains them. This can begin simply by looking at a plant or tree that droops towards the ground in a sad way, or a flower that lifts its head to smile at the sun. This imagining connects us in new ways with the outer world.


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Reflections on the Signs in the Gospel of St John, January – July 2006

Water to Wine – One – Changing Feeling into Thinking


On the third day there was a marriage at Cana in Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there; Jesus also was invited to the marriage, with his disciples. When the wine failed, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “O woman, what have you to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Now six stone jars were standing there, for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. Jesus said to them, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. He said to them, “Now draw some out, and take it to the steward of the feast.” So they took it. When the steward of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the steward of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Every man serves the good wine first; and when men have drunk freely, then the poor wine; but you have kept the good wine until now.” This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory; and his disciples believed in him. John 2:1-11

This series of Reflections will explore the so called signs in the Gospel of St John. These signs are also associated with miracles performed by Jesus after he was baptised by John the Baptist. If we take the life of Jesus as a blue print for our own spiritual development, we can use events such as these signs and miracles as a barometer of our progress.


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Reflections on the Nine Beatitudes using the Gospel of St John, August 2006 – March 2007


1.4 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

We can look at each of the nine beatitudes in terms of the Christ-ening of the nine parts of our being; physical, etheric, astral and then the three soul and three spiritual regions. If we apply the first beatitude to our physical body we will find clues about how our I AM is enlivened in our body.

Our physical body is the most fully developed part of us. The physiology of the human being is a marvel. The way our skeleton, muscles and skin hold and protect our organs in a life giving way is truly wondrous.


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Reflections on the Book of Revelation, April 2007 – April 2010

SoulSecretPOD-001The revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show to his servants what must soon take place; and he made it known by sending his angel to his servant John, who bore witness to the word of God and to the testimony of Jesus Christ, even to all that he saw. Blessed is he who reads aloud the words of the prophecy, and blessed are those who hear, and who keep what is written therein; for the time is near. Rev 1:1-3

We can read and contemplate the bible in many ways. We should certainly take notice of the literal meaning of its stories. This becomes a most difficult task when we read the Revelation to John. The imagery is shocking, mystifying and bizarre, especially when we place it outside ourselves. It more closely resembles our dream life rather than our waking life.


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Reflections on Who is Jesus, What is Christ? May 2010 – October 2016


The Bible can only be fully understood when we have a detailed knowledge of the makeup of the human being. We can only have this understanding through our own personal experience of ourselves which we have applied and tested in our own lives throughout the day. When we are able to experience that we are beings of body, soul and spirit we then come to the point of experiencing ourselves as beings of soul and spirit which occupy our body much like we would occupy a car to transport us here and there.

If we can grasp this truth and actually have a personal experience of it, we can then approach the possibility of our soul and spirit entering repeatedly into different bodies at different times in history. This could be compared to upgrading the model of our car from time to time. There is a passage in the Bible that could support this idea of reincarnation. When the Jews heard that John the Baptist was baptising they sent their representatives to question him about who he was; Christ, Elijah, or the prophet?

And this is the testimony of John, when the Jews sent priests and Levites from Jerusalem to ask him, “Who are you?” He confessed, he did not deny, but confessed, “I am not the Christ.” And they asked him, “What then? Are you Elijah?” He said, “I am not.” “Are you the prophet?” And he answered, “No.” They said to him then, “Who are you? Let us have an answer for those who sent us. What do you say about yourself?” Jn 1:19-22

Why would they choose Elijah from all the possibilities? Furthermore, they knew that Elijah was long dead? It is possible that they recognised traits of Elijah’s in the Baptist or perhaps they had the spiritual vision to see who had been in the past. So if he was Elijah in a past life why didn’t he affirm this? To answer this question fully we need to consider in some detail how and why we enter into different bodies at different times throughout history.


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To Journey Back November 2016 ongoing

This is the story about a man who has just died. In the afterlife he is tracing the life he has just lived backwards. It is a life review, step by step, from the moment of the last breath back to the moment of the first breath, to re-experience every thought, feeling, and action and interaction he had through his life.

He remains connected with his close friends and, as he sees what they are doing in the days after his death, he understands more deeply the relationship he had with them. He also sees all the activity surrounding his death, which he was not aware of when he was alive.
More and more people who have had a near death experience are reporting that this is the experience we all have when we die. At some point in their after-life experience they decided to come back and continue living their current life. We have much to learn from them, not only for when we die, but for how we can live our lives on this earth more meaningfully.

If we can have a real experience of what happens when we die it will assist us to meet the end of our own life with more awareness. Our journey forward will then be a great contribution to human evolution. I hope you enjoy this journey.

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