Trying to understand the Christ Mystery is not easy. The thing is, we have to do it here, we can’t say, “Oh I will do it when I die, when I am in the spiritual worlds without the hindrance of my body. I will see Christ and I will understand why he did what he did.”
Unfortunately it doesn’t work like that. We only have access in the spiritual worlds to what we understood here on this earth. Every effort we make to understand the sacred mysteries now, we can access when we sleep, after we die, and while we dwell in the spiritual world preparing for our next incarnation.
“Since the Christ event, human beings who raise themselves up to the Christ Mystery can carry with them into the spiritual world what has been gained here in the world of the senses.” An Outline of Esoteric Science by Rudolf Steiner.