Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and whoever lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?” John 11:25-26
From the depths of the Gospel of St John we find this fifth I AM saying. Lazarus, the brother of Martha and Mary has died. They blame Jesus for not coming earlier to save him. When Jesus finally comes, Martha goes to meet him while Mary stays in the house. This is a lovely image of Mary, who represents our soul, staying within the house with her feelings while Martha moves outwards to where the I AM is to be found. Our Higher Self, this I AM, is still in the process of uniting with our soul. Before it can do this a few things have to happen. One of these things is to do with the process of resurrection.
Jesus says (the) I AM is the resurrection and the life … but only if we believe it!
The problem is that we don’t like things to die. The basic character of our soul is never to let things die. We find the proof of this in our feelings. Once we start to feel something, especially anger, we cannot stop it, it will not die until a certain amount of time has passed. If it were up to our thinking, then we could think of something else and the anger would be replaced by another thought.
There is a very different outcome when our I AM is engaged in the process. Our I AM will always let the anger, or any other feeling, die. The intensity of these feelings is directly linked to a karmic situation anyway, which is why something can make one person angry and not have the same effect on another person. Our I AM wants us to face our karma because it is our opportunity to balance and harmonise the past and become a better person.
Taking this example of anger, if we allow the anger to die and then experience the resurrection we have the life of our I AM in our soul. Our soul is raised up from the instinctual response so that choices can be made. But we can only believe it if we experience the reality of it. This can happen if we can test it out as we go about our daily life.
The following quote speaks very powerfully about this process.
“We must eradicate from the soul all fear and terror of what approaches Humanity from the future. We must acquire serenity in all feelings and sensations about the future. We must look forward with absolute equanimity to everything that may come. And we must think only that whatever comes is given to us by a cosmic-guidance full of wisdom. It is part of what we must learn in this age, namely, to live out of pure trust, without any security in existence. Trust in the ever present help of the spiritual world. Truly, nothing else will do if our courage is not to fail us. And let us seek the awakening from within ourselves every morning and evening.” -Rudolf Steiner
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